Posted by sar on July 19, 2001, at 14:11:08
In reply to Re: pysch troubles » sar, posted by Wendy B. on July 19, 2001, at 0:49:41
Dear Wendy,
"This is called 'Someone in authority letting you down.'" Yes, you're right.
I hope she is ashamed of herself too, but I think she hopes the same of me! I'd like to know what she's thinking right now. I mailed a very, um, *controlled* letter to her this morning, apologizing for "inappropriately" calling her a bitch. (I apologized for being "inappropriate" but did not say that I was sorry. Let her read between the lines if she wants to.)
I wrote that if it wasn't clear last week, this letter was confirmation that we would no longer be working together, and I wished her the best of luck in her research and attempts to help people.
My favorite psych was actually a few years ago, just a plain old psychologist who did CBT with me. She was transferred to Washington after a year and a half, and I was very disappointed. I haven't been able to find one as satisfactory as her since, and that was about 3 years ago. My former insurance company referred me to this most recent doctor who just *happened* to be a psychoanalyst, and I ended up (for awhile!) really digging this woman and her method. I'm pretty rational when I'm not being completely irrational, so I appreciated her expertise and education and her lack of *agenda*--every other psych I run into seems so eager for me to join AA, blame my depression on my moderate drug experimentation. This woman let me talk, was excellent at helping me do dream interpretation, and constantly tested me. She was brilliant...just not warmly human enough, it turns out. I think she'd be a great researcher, maybe she just shouldn't be parading her services as "therapy"...
The docs say I have to get a pregnancy test from a professional before they'll start me on the depakote, so it'll be another week or 2...I've been on klonopin for about a month now and it's really chilled me out, it's easier to laugh and I feel strong and extroverted (usually I feel very weak and introverted)...I'm feeling better.
I like calling a spade a spade too! Feels more honest. Impulse control, shrimpulse control... :)
They say my drinking days will be over with the depakote, because the drug by itself already kind of does a number on the liver.thanks, Wendy, and hugs to you too.
sar
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