Posted by mila on May 8, 2001, at 0:15:12
In reply to Re: Forgive, O Lord, posted by Doo on May 7, 2001, at 23:22:16
'I know I am alone in my boat, but it is so comforting to see lights of other boats, bobbing nearby, in the darkness'
a patient in existential psychotherapy.===I feel alone in my loneliness,
... that's very congruent of you :) and a good start...I haven't answered your post right away, Doo, please forgive me the delay, because i went orgasmic :) (it happens to me everytime someone utters the word 'existential', my favorite ) Then i took sometime to think whether you really mean it. then i decided what the heck, and posted :)
I would like to know more about the death wish. I have never experienced it 'entering my conscioussness', when i attempted suicide I just did it, only later it entered my conscioussnes.
===Most poeple have a great capacity, which I envy, to push away from their minds all existential questions.
well, according to existential dogma, they do not exactly push them away from their minds. these questions just intude into their conscoussness later, usually in times of great distress, which mental discomfort/illness certainly is.
===I simply would like the tough part to come in small doses, not all at once
Then do as you would like to. Say,"Ok, ok, questions, not all at once, one at a time please. I want to respectfully address each and every one of you. Now, who is the most desperate and unaddressed? Step forward!" :) it always works for me when my head starts to spin form too many tough questions demanding immediate answers and ACTION. Somehow they know very well how to line themselves up, when I promise I'll deal with everyone of them, and fullfill my promise. It is next to impossible to achieve, of course, if you are lying to yourself, and just want to hide.
===... hmmm I'm currently beginning a therapy, where I'll do all I can to find my way.
Godspeed, Doo.
A small word of advice. Remember at all times to talk to your therappist, not in front of him/her. That is rather a formidable challenge for a loner, but you can do it.mila
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