Posted by Dubya on March 28, 2001, at 23:39:45
I AM STUPID because I SUCK. I SUCK because, I have a car (2001 Accord V6), a room in my family's home, I have everything 99% of the population could let's say, ever want like a 475mhz notebook PC, etc, etc. I have 3 awards on my wall from various high school and some awards stashed away from grade school... I never deserved any of them and I am not happy b/c, I can't live a life where I am different from ppl around me... I WANT to DO WELL in academics, etc, I WANT RESPONSIBILITY but, the only thing PREVENTING me is, ME because, I SUCK. I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MYSELF, I always break into some form of "SWEAT(S)" around PEOPLE, especially when I FEEL I AM BEING JUDGED (by an authority or snob, etc). I SUCK, I HOPE NOBODY in this MSG BOARD feels the way I DO, it bites. I AM ALMOST A PRISONER OF MYSELF because, whatever efforts I PUT in, I MAKE MISTAKES which would otherwise allow me to succeed. IT just ALWAYS SEEMS that the MISTAKES I MAKE ARE MADE BY NO ONE ELSE meaning, I AM DIFFERENT, thus I SUCK.
poster:Dubya
thread:5325
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20010324/msgs/5325.html