Posted by Phil on September 13, 2000, at 6:50:30
In reply to followup, posted by allisonm on September 13, 2000, at 0:41:54
Allison, Hopefully you are well paid for putting yourself through all that pressure.
I worked for a retail company in the 70's and early 80's and routinely put in 80 hour weeks and was constantly under pressure, a lot. The last year, I was running 5 stores.
When I left that company, I had no sense of who I was or what the hell my life was about. Shortly after, I began therapy and a year or so later meds. I made the owners a lot of money but knew nothing about 'taking care of myself'. One of those areas of self-care, which I'm still working on, is putting some 'go to hell' money in the bank.
I never realized that, coming from an alcoholic home, made the chaos and pressure of that job feel 'normal'. I thrived on the adrenaline. It almost killed me and, in the end, did kill my spirit.
All I'm saying is TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. You don't have to prove you can take more and more pressure.
Sorry if this sounds preachy but self-care has to be a big part of our recovery. Your company has no real care for you as a person as far as I can tell. Even though they talk the talk, they are asking an awful lot. Their dynamics seem very reminiscent of the company I worked for.Just ramblin'
Phil
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