Posted by Jena Lyn on August 30, 2000, at 10:22:56
In reply to Re: PS. About old habits--, posted by chdurie2 on August 29, 2000, at 19:25:32
Caroline,
Thank you so much ... we do seem to be going through the same sort of ordeal ... and your right, all the things you mentioned are much easier said than done. Ive taken HUGE strides in some parts of my life, in getting past a lot of things, but I never let them go ... thats my biggest problem. I can't let things go, I can stop thinking about them for a long time, but I never let it go completely and it comes back to haunt me. My big brother told me that he thinks the reason I can't let go of things is because I can't forgive MYSELF for things that have happened, even if they weren't my fault. Like my parents seperation and my dad's affair-I can't forgive myself for not being able to stop it. And for the cruel things people said and did to me as I child-I can't forgive myself for not being strong enough to rise above it. I haven't been going to a therapist since april, I need to go back. I know I do, Im just having a hard time taking the step. In the mean time ... it is helping me to talk to you and everyone on here, we are kindered spirits all on this journey ... we have to help each other ...
luv and sunshine
Jena
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