Posted by wildflower44 on March 10, 2006, at 9:11:02
In reply to Re: addicted to male attention, posted by jonquiljo on March 10, 2006, at 2:45:43
Thanks for your kind words and for responding. When I read your feedback "maybe you are lonely," I felt a tug inside my stomach and felt like I could burst out in tears. So, you may have hit on something:) I have always considered myself fiercly independent. I actually love my time alone and having my own space. But I think I am in huge denial and do not want to look at that word or concept: LONELY. I sounds so needy and ridiculous to me. I know I am supposed to be my own best friend, trust in a loving "HP," and be okay no matter where I am. I believe I should just enjoy my own presence and not need anyone. f--k. No man is an island. I have created myself into an island with inviting shores that are just a facade. Really, my island is a dangerous black hole of loneliness and neediness. oh my gosh. I don't know what to do with this revelation. What do people do? How are you all doing this life thing, people? I feel like I missed some critical lesson in 4th grade one day. Everybody else "got it," but I was absent that day. What did I miss? How can I help myself?
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