Posted by Dinah on October 2, 2011, at 0:59:52
In reply to Re: I'm jealous » Dinah, posted by annierose on October 1, 2011, at 13:59:29
I think I have problems thinking he has me in mind at all when it's not my two fifty minute sessions per week. He really is reassuring. He tells me he cares about me, and that two hours a week for all these years is a lot of time to get to know and care about someone.
But even if it were logistically possible, I'm never going to be physically held or smiled at in that delighted way. I'm never going to sit at his knee. Or hold my arms up to be picked up and held. (Which is actually an image that comes to me when I am upset about something in my life, and contemplating an upcoming therapy session.)
Even if he does care for me, which I don't always believe, it's a very limited and rule bound sort of caring. A caring between 10:10 and 11:00 Tuesdays and Fridays.
I hate unbalanced caring.
A new baby and a doting grandfather just sort of drive that point home.
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