Posted by Daisym on April 17, 2011, at 23:35:08
In reply to Re: Agony » Daisym, posted by Annabelle Smith on April 16, 2011, at 21:46:02
I wrote a whole reply and disappeared - I hate that.
I'm glad you are seeing your therapist tomorrow. I hope you can be brutally honest about what you think will happen by staying here. I worry that you will eventually resent your therapist because the relationship is unlikely to take up more time and space in your life than it already does. You said weekend are hell - you are so alone. How will this change by staying? What is it you are hoping for?
Only you can say what is right for you. But if you build a whole life around someone who isn't equally invested in building theirs around you, you are bound to be disappointed. I'm not saying your therapist doesn't care deeply about you. I'm saying that your world can get very small if you allow it to exist only within the limitation of a theraputic relationship.
But mostly my point is that once you decide, stop wondering if you made a mistake. Grab onto the positives and hang on to them. Tell yourself this is absolutely the best thing for you right now. Let go of the other path and pay attention to moving forward on the path you've chosen. I had a friend who used to say, "If you keep looking over your shoulder, your bound to run into a tree." Very wise, I think.
Good luck with all of this. I know it isn't easy.
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