Posted by Verloren on January 30, 2010, at 11:18:53
In reply to constant nausea, posted by blahblahblah on January 30, 2010, at 5:36:15
(((((((((((((((((((((((Blah)))))))))))))))))))))))
I wish I could offer more inspiring and poetic words to get your through this.
I pains me that your mum is in denial about her illness. Maybe, one day she will get help and maybe she will leave her lies behind.
For you, now is a struggle and I know there is no magical way to work past the terror our moms left us holding. Moms can really miss the point can't they? Don't we wish they would see the pain caused and just help us for once through it instead of denying our hurt?
I've been thinking of writing my "angry/letting go letter" to my mom. It still hurts, but I'm hoping even if I don't send it, I will feel relief.
Maybe it's time for your own "letter". Even if you never send it. Talk to your T about this and see what she says. It's important for you to express you feelings even if they are not being heard right now.You know your truth. Even with her denial, YOU know your truth. And I really hope you know what a beautiful, caring, warm young woman you are. That's the truth I see. I hope you see it too.
I think of you being there for me and I know, without doubt, you are such a kind person. I wish you would not have to spend one day in pain.
One day you will no longer feel the nausea. I wish it would go away right now and give you the peace you deserve.
Your T sounds wonderful. If you need to, text her and reach out to her as well. If I can offer any advice, think about your present and the care she felt for you to give it to you. Soothe yourself in some way: hot herbal tea, warm bath, good book, movie, warm hugs.
Thinking of you and wishing you happier thoughts
Love,
V
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