Posted by blahblahblah on January 30, 2010, at 5:36:15
Hey all,
I haven't been doing too well and need some friends to talk to. Firstly...some happy new. My T gave me a little present for my birthday. It made me so happy.K now the other stuff. I am having bad times with my mum. Those who remember will know I'm a Munchausen by proxy victim. I have never confronted my mum bout this. Anyways, the other day i was on the phone to her. She started saying how her mother was in a psych ward. I then proceeded to say it must run in the family of which my mum then said she has had no mental illness ever or been to a shrink. I then said in my human services records it says she has. she then said that once a shrink showed her pics and it reported she had been repeatedly abused by many men. this convo then turned into me questioning my foster care. of which she said that they accused her of hurting me and she didn't. she told me i pulled out my own surgically inserted tubes and did it all to myself. then said how hard it was for her. I know this is all lies, I have my detailed records. She is a compulsive liar, it's like it's all she knows. And i have spent my whole life sticking up for her, believing in her. Not until this call have i heard her bluntly lie to me about so much stuff, and not seem phased by it. I feel so sick now. It's been 4 days and my nausea is constant, I feel no one can understand. I don't know what I'm asking for here. Maybe just someone to share this with. Someone to care. I just can't get my head around all this. My childhood seems so surreal, how can I make sense of it? I'm just so confused.
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