Posted by antigua3 on August 22, 2009, at 9:54:52
In reply to Re: Feeling kind of blue (**csa trigger) » antigua3, posted by rskontos on August 21, 2009, at 22:53:02
Sorry you had such a long absence from your T. It can be so very hard.
I hadn't seen my psychiatrist in a month, which was a really long time since so much had burst forth. But I was so determined to make it that month, to prove I could do it, I guess. This was in the middle of telling my mother what happened and I was probably shooting myself in the foot.
But it's so difficult for me to ask for help. I'm at that place where I recognize that I have to do this alone. While my T and pdoc can help, at the end of the day, at the end of my life, I am alone. I know that sounds distressing, and they both keep pointing out that this is wrong, but I'm so used to doing things on my own. I believed them for a while, and so many things came forth, that I've retreated back into my shell. I'm stronger, though, and I have internalized both of them pretty well.
But then my knees can go weak when I hear their voices on the phone, so I'm not there yet.
You are making progress. Hold onto your T as long as you need to, and trust him. Trust is so important for working through these things.
I hope you feel better and can get back on track with your T. It sounds like it has been difficult for you, and you're too nice of a person to feel so overloaded.
antigua
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