Posted by antigua3 on August 21, 2009, at 21:37:13
In reply to Re: Feeling kind of blue (**csa trigger) » antigua3, posted by rskontos on August 21, 2009, at 17:05:54
Thank you so much. You did offer help. Just knowing I'm not alone--although you know none of us wish this on anyone else--helps a lot.
You will be OK. The integration for me went very easily, really. For me, it's really how different I feel afterwards. It's just a very weird feeling.
I know how much energy is takes to push or try to stop the flashbacks from happening. It can be exhausting.
I must admit that it's nice to no longer be hounded by my fears. I still have nightmares, but nowhere near as many. (Now I've probably jinxed myself!)
So take care of yourself. It's important.
I'm sorry you hurt someone close to you. I know how that feels, for the anger to overtake us. It can be so very strong at times. I recognize that feeling of watching from above, as if it's happening to someone else.
I guess that's what therapy is for--in an ideal world, that's where we let it out. I know I was just vicious toward my psychiatrist for so long and it's only now that I can see what I was doing. But he always told me he could handle my anger, and he has done a good job doing so. I'm just glad he hung in there with me for us to have a better relationship.
Be nice to yourself. YOU are making real progress too, please know that.
antigua
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