Posted by antigua3 on July 23, 2009, at 12:18:18
In reply to She says it's chemical, posted by Tabitha on July 23, 2009, at 3:11:08
I've been where you are many times. Is this as good as it gets? was always my question. Should I just accept it and get on with my life? has hit me time and time again.
But, I couldn't let myself believe that. It's partly what Scott said, but for me it was just having faith--perhaps that faith has been misguided at times, but I just had to have faith that things would get better. Because if this was as good as it got, I couldn't live this way.
Today, 19 years later--yes, a huge portion of my life--I am at a place where I believe this is good enough, because it is good. I think I may have found my way to the other side and while I regret it took so long, I can say that it was worth it.
But I hear you. For me, I just had to have something to hold onto. I guess it was a belief that it would get better if I kept trying.
Please take care. The down times can be so rough, and I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now.
antigua
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