Posted by workinprogress on May 20, 2009, at 2:22:53
In reply to Re: I'm not going to make it - (possible trigger) » antigua3, posted by FindingMyDesire on May 19, 2009, at 13:13:33
FMD-
I'm on an out of town assignment and have been traveling/swamped. But, I wanted to say I saw your post today and I hear you and I feel for you. It sounds like Sat. was awful. And I agree with Antigua's assessment, your T probably really does want to talk it through and see if leaving really is the right thing. It doesn't sound like you REALLY want to leave, but just that it feels REALLY hard and REALLY hard to manage. So, maybe talk about that? And the more honest the better. About all the stuff we've talked about. My guess is she'll understand. And if she doesn't, well then maybe you should leave? But... I bet she will understand and empathize and maybe even come up with some ways the two of you can work together to make things a little bit easier.
I wish you luck. But again, you're not alone in your feelings, or certainly in feeling that sometimes the process itself is VERY VERY painful.
((((((FMD))))))
> Thanks so much, antigua. I was hoping my little hidden post would attract some attention. It's funny how I watch myself play out the same behavior everywhere in my life.
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> Thanks, too, for sharing your storing. It is really so helpful to feel understood.
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> Thanks also for not shaming me about what I did and for being so out of control. I'm just trying to gear up for talking to her about it on Thursday.
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> And for telling me to go back. Our couple's therapist told me last night that if she could she would want to make me continue to go because she thinks (through watching me and hearing what I say about my relationship with my T) that the process is really good and is worth continuing and really significant - even if very, very difficult. It also helped when she told me that it would be good to find a way with my T to modulate things a bit, but she wasn't sure this was really possible. Somehow that made me "acceptable" and not too much. Cause I always feel like I'm too much and it's all my fault.
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> Anyway, thanks again. I really, really appreciate your time.
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> FMD
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