Posted by FindingMyDesire on May 19, 2009, at 13:13:33
In reply to Re: I'm not going to make it - (possible trigger), posted by antigua3 on May 19, 2009, at 7:42:20
Thanks so much, antigua. I was hoping my little hidden post would attract some attention. It's funny how I watch myself play out the same behavior everywhere in my life.
Thanks, too, for sharing your storing. It is really so helpful to feel understood.
Thanks also for not shaming me about what I did and for being so out of control. I'm just trying to gear up for talking to her about it on Thursday.
And for telling me to go back. Our couple's therapist told me last night that if she could she would want to make me continue to go because she thinks (through watching me and hearing what I say about my relationship with my T) that the process is really good and is worth continuing and really significant - even if very, very difficult. It also helped when she told me that it would be good to find a way with my T to modulate things a bit, but she wasn't sure this was really possible. Somehow that made me "acceptable" and not too much. Cause I always feel like I'm too much and it's all my fault.
Anyway, thanks again. I really, really appreciate your time.
FMD
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