Posted by SLS on April 24, 2009, at 20:36:55
In reply to Re: Feeling melancholy » SLS, posted by antigua3 on April 24, 2009, at 19:28:42
> > Lost years.
> Interesting idea, but I couldn't ever let myself believe that they were "lost" years because that would be too devastating. I prefer to think of discovering things like this that they were earned insights that for whatever reasons had to be obtained.
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> It's like my pdoc asking me the other day if I had any regrets at how my life had worked out, knowing that my warped beliefs colored every area of my life. Yes, of course, I have regrets, some very shameful ones, but I decided a long time ago that I couldn't go down that path because I am who I am, illness/whatever and all, and I have to believe that some good came out of the effort.
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> Sorry for jumping in Dinah.
> Thanks for the thought Scott.
> antigua
For me, the lost decades have been difficult for me to accept. They still haunt me sometimes. However, I have gone through a grieving process such that I now accept the loss. I imagine there will be more grieving that I will be confronted with every now and then. However, I am ready to move on. What a gift it is to have received such a genuine improvement in my condition. I thank God every day for it. When I look at the grand scheme of things, I am grateful for an opportunity to find happiness that is not granted to everyone. Yes, I did work for it, but I consider myself blessed to have had the resources to do so.Thanks for reminding me to create a gratitude list.
- Scott
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