Posted by muffled on February 16, 2009, at 21:15:01
In reply to Re: Therapy last night ******CSA Trigger********* » muffled, posted by TherapyGirl on February 16, 2009, at 18:44:07
> Your words don't confuse me, Muffled. Your words are both a gift and a lifeline. I think you may be right that neither of us ever figures out what the heck did or didn't happen to us and why we get triggered the way we do. I think you are handling that WAY better than I am.
*used to bug me lots, now less so. But still it does at times. I sometimes just kinda wished I had an explanation instead of this big void. But then I think to myself...hmmm given the choice, I think maybe possibly the void is the lesser of the evils.
And people say that when the time is right, if they are gonna come (mems) then they will. If not, then no, and thats OK.
> One thing is that my T asked me how old the child in the dream was. I told her 10-12. I didn't think about it then, although I'm sure she did and didn't mention it, but that is not one of the ages we've ever thought anything happened. Something else I should probably think about if my brain ever functions again. But maybe it won't. Maybe my brain is permanently shut down. How do we know?*I wouldn't stress bout your dream too much. Ya mebbe meant something, maybe not. Just have to wait and see.
> (((((((((Muffly))))))))))*(((((TG))))
Ya, I worried ALOT w/the dissociation as to whether I could have done bad things :( but I realized my kids were OK, I can't have. And I realize I would not hurt them. ALL of me respects my kids. So thots are thots and not actions.
Glad you still with us.
Every day you get thru puts you closer to the time when you'll feel better.
Cuz I beleive you will.
Take care,
M
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