Posted by Nadezda on December 31, 2008, at 20:32:30
In reply to Re: cancer. » jammerlich, posted by llurpsienoodle on December 31, 2008, at 19:43:28
Gosh Llurps. I'm so sorry. This is tough. How mind-bendingly more tough it is to watch while someone you care about isn't doing all they can-- when it's so important-- and when you know what they need to do, but can only sit there and watch while they just won't do it for themselves.
It's terrifying and disempowering-- especially when you're already afraid and there's so much at stake.
I guess maybe you have to accept that your mother can't be the perfect patient-- but I hope you do know that she'll get through this -okay --fortunately--. Even though it's awful to have to contemplate all the things that can run through your mind-- she will do enough of what she has to-- maybe not as soon as might be hoped, or as fully-- but you know, maddening as this is-- we're all this way, in our own, ill-chosen moments.
Just try to hang in there-- and take care of yourself!!
And you know: Why not just wear one of those jumbo-tire parkas to your appointment? Maybe it will break the ice.... or, well, maybe not: maybe it's too silly. But I think your T would get a laugh out of it. Or just some subtly loose-fitting clothes-- not a bathrobe or anything, but just something you can hide in a bit, at least for a while? Why not--if you're more comfortable? I say do it however you can. (Okay-- maybe not a bathrobe, but you know, within reason...)
(((Llurps)))
Nadezda
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