Posted by Partlycloudy on December 29, 2008, at 12:10:35
In reply to Re: Letting go of family and home » Partlycloudy, posted by antigua3 on December 29, 2008, at 11:45:33
I guess I'm finding it hard because my mom was (and continues to be, really) the perpetrator of neglect and emotional abuse. When I told her what had happened to me at age 11, recently, she said, "I don't know what I would have been able to do for you."
OK - inappropriate. She could have reported the guy to the police, gone to the high school he went to, maybe saved a little girl's life.
Mom is alive and well and trying to call me. I hung up on her yesterday without speaking a word, because I know that at this point she's feeling angry and hurt, but it's not up to me to help her feel better. She's a Bad Mother. Was, still is.
So things continue to be difficult. And the rest of my family resemble nothing else so much as a bunch of clams; and right now I'm kind of like a jellyfish, see-through and somewhat poisonous.
My mission is to keep my caloric intake up as much as I can. It was never my plan to lose weight over the holidays, but right now I'm slurping protein shakes, eating pudding and jello and yogurt. Blech. (Oh, and Spaghettios - no chewing.)
hugs to you
pc
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