Posted by Nadezda on November 24, 2008, at 23:09:31
In reply to Re: My T » Nadezda, posted by Dinah on November 24, 2008, at 13:10:00
I guess everything you say seems true to me, but you're right-- I do need to be more sure-- at least that' s how I feel tonight. Not yesterday night, or all weekend, but at least this moment. I'm not quite ready-- although maybe I will be. It's still a very saddening prospect, but one I can't ignore.
If he can't change how he treats me-- soon-- or if I can't somehow meet him somewhere where we have some rapport, or at least mutual understanding of what we're doing-- I'm sure it will soon be impossible.
I just never thought it would come to this. But maybe it will just end because I'll stop going. I've cancelled so many times recently because I don't feel that it will be productive-- or that I can face his disapproval and comments.
But if I can't trust him and feel that he can hear me-- or even wants to hear me-- if I can't recover that trust-- then it is useless to drag myself onward.
It is a frightening thought.
Thanks a lot for your words.
Nadezda
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