Posted by rskontos on October 31, 2008, at 18:42:07
In reply to Re: Rupture in therapy (long) » Nadezda, posted by Wittgensteinz on October 30, 2008, at 6:13:14
Witti,
The thing I find astonishing is that this no-suicide contract puts the burden of not committing suicide more or less right back on your shoulders. I thought the goal for therapy was to help you not want to try it? I am confused with that contract bit. Was it something to get the monkey off his back. This is what I am struggling with.
I feel strongly after reading most of the posts and yours, that your T is feeling too strongly his feelings and not yours. It sounds too much like this is all about how he feels not you.
I know the day programme seems scary but maybe a break for you and your T is what is in order. And a new perspective from being with other T's for now would be a good thing. And it isn't like you are breaking with him permanently. You can say your p-doc thinks it is necessary so that it is not you deciding completely. And this way both you and your t can have some breathing room to get things back into place so to speak. Maybe he needs a break to figure out what an *ss he has been. Pardon my language but he has.
He is trying to absolve himself from all responsibilities of helping you with your feelings around suicide. Unlike the p-doc who saw the elephant in the room and discussed it your T is running from the issue.
Just my 2cents. But I am sorry you are having such a rough time.
I care about you sweetie.
Please be safe.
rsk
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