Posted by B2chica on August 19, 2008, at 12:46:36
In reply to Re: Therapy tomorrow (**suicide triggers**) » Cecilia, posted by Wittgensteinz on August 19, 2008, at 8:11:40
a few years ago i was chronically suicidal and made several attempts.
i then started seeing a T who wanted me to sign a "contract" with him. but he knew that wasnt going to hold with me.
what DID help was that he told me that it was OK to think about suicide, to go to that dark place, but to do it with him. to go there when we are in session. to describe every ache, every lure, every relief about it but to do it with him. that it was ok to talk about it, but it was NOT ok to act on it.
even if i wanted to describe how i would do it, how it would feel, how i imagine people would react afterward is ok.
Just NOT ACT. again, its the act, that jump from it being in your head to making it real where it needed to stop.remember this when you see your T next. ask him if getting this deep with him would be ok. maybe you need to express this with him.
but you know yourself best, maybe talking that deep could make you worse also, so please be careful. and do what is comfortable for you.so sorry about your experience, but a few of us have similar memories. so we understand.
thank you for being so open.(((((((((cares))))))))))
b2c.
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