Posted by Daisym on July 17, 2008, at 0:35:56
In reply to Re: Wrestling » Daisym, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 15, 2008, at 16:28:50
I don't know - myself isn't very articulate or upbeat these days. But the phone session went fine - He still asks the same hard questions and has the same sense of humor. "I'm fine doesn't work with me on the phone anymore than it does in person. If you are nodding, that doesn't help me either." Amazingly, he hears tears. The silent ones that run down your face - he seems to know when to pause but not too long and offered to pass the tissues but he couldn't figure out how to stuff them into the phone line. :)
I've only lost confidence a few times and it is usually the process, not him. The fact that he has confidence in me is scary. I can cope when I can control things or when I know all the rules and how to get an A. But when anything and everything is OK - how do I know I'm doing the right thing? He tells me we get through it all together and that he won't let go. But eventually he'll have to, if only to save himself.
I'm honest but only to a point on the phone. Who I am out here in the real world is pretty different than when I'm curled up on his couch. So I'll be weepy and needy - but only a little. I told him I was going to open with phone joke:
Psychiatric Hot-line.
If you are obsessive-compulsive, please press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 4.
If you have multiple personalities, please press 1, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid-delusional, we know who you are and what you want. Just stay on the line so we can trace the call.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are depressed, it doesn't matter which number you press. No one will answer.
If you are delusional and occasionally hallucinate, please be aware that the thing you are holding on the side of your head is alive and about to bite off your ear.
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