Posted by mair on March 28, 2008, at 22:10:11
In reply to Re: Why Do We Let This Stuff Bother Us? » mair, posted by Phillipa on March 27, 2008, at 19:24:47
After being upset with my T for not showing up for an appointment I was supposed to have on Wednesday, she called me at work today at 2:15 or so to ask why I hadn't shown up for my 2 PM appointment. I said something like "no it's at 3, and I still have the appointment card to prove it." She reminded me that after the last app't fiasco on Wed she asked me about Friday and I told her I would be there, at 3. She had corrected me and told me 2 (she has another regular patient at 3). As she was reminding me of this conversation, what she was saying came back to me, but the 3 o'clock time was so embedded, that I apparently never really took in the message about the correct time for the appointment.
Even though she had previously corrected me about the time, she was profusely apologetic about having steered me wrong on the original appointment card and I think she was pretty flustered that she had made that kind of error, particularly on the heels of the screw up over Wednesday's appointment.
So here's the kicker - After I got off the phone I checked my calendar and saw that I'd marked 2 pm, and when I got home I dug around and found the orignal appointment card - it said 2 pm. So, I was totally wrong in every respect. I don't know how or why I was so convinced that it was at 3; obviously I never got it from her.
I feel bad because I know I left her with the impression that she had actually given me an appointment card which noted, as a time, the same time as another client and because she was obviously flustered about having made that egregious an error.
She told me on the phone that the timing of this was so bad because I recently told her that I was starting to get the impression that she hoped I would terminate. She didn't want the appointment snafus to reinforce that.Nevermind what's in her subconcious. What about mine? In literally hundreds of times of seeing her over many many years, this is maybe only the second time I've screwed up the time - and if she's right about Wednesday, I've managed to do it twice in the same week.
Is the reverse true? Is this my subconcious way of telling her she's not important to me?
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