Posted by rskontos on February 12, 2008, at 12:41:05
In reply to Re: Feel like Therapist and I started from Scratch » rskontos, posted by Dinah on February 12, 2008, at 12:22:37
Dinah, it is true. And bringing up how I feel is tough to do. I am getting better at it but it is not something I do "well". I am conditioned to take my feelings and internalize them. He told me to try and tell him at the moment it happens when I feel uncomfortable. If I can. I will try that. It will be hard. I think for the first time, I saw the benefits of therapy and that I don't have to DO IT ALL and that I can let him do MOST of it. So maybe Daisym you have an answer to what being dependent looks to me. Someone else being in the drive seat at some of the time. Not all, be some.
And I watched all the IN Treaments today. And it helped me realize today that I DO need therapy. And for me to admit it, finally, to myself is a huge step. I mean really admit and to see even if it is a show that it has really meaning and value. Because in one of the session and I won't say what in order now to spoil it I had a wow moment. It was really powerful.
I feel a sense of something I can't describe today. Between watching the sessions and having a really good one, that I noticed the progress, it i s uplifting. A small uplifting but a noticeable one.