Posted by muffled on October 8, 2007, at 23:16:38
OK OK I can guess.....
But really, y'know , I am doing mostly OK.
Maybe I am using some poor coping mechanisms.....but, hey I coping, I surviving.
Ya, my kids are clean, they fed, they feel loved ,mostly.
So like, say I go back to T? WTF I gonna say?
I sent her some links to a coupla posts, but who cares bout her anyhow? I mean like I care, but like I don't want her to die or nothing. But I don't NEED her. We doing fine, we taking care our ownselves.
(((Benedryl)))(((additives)))
See we do OK.
I just keep thinking, OK, I goto T office, I sit down.....THEN WHAT??? WTF she gonna say? WTF I gonna say??? There;s nuttin TO say.
Mebbe I mad, cuz connection keeps getting broken.
But I GLAD she take care or she no good to noboddy.
Maybe I don't wanto talk hubby stuff.
Maybe everything will be OK.
Yup, I reckon kid is pissed all right.
Why TF we talk to HER? WHO IS SHE? She a person, noboddy magic, nobboddy gonna make it all better.
Now we know what goes on we can watch for each other so there. T just simple, she DON"T EVEN KNOW BOUT HER "OTHERS". Bet she got 'em. I reckon as how ALL do. They just dunno is all.
F*ck*ng T she can be happy and well adjusted.
I just f*ck*ng 'dose' myself into nothingness.
Cept guess someboddy pissed at T.
Noboddy wanna go back really.
I gonna send a e-mail and tell her, cuz I think she 'back' tomorrow, but not back to work till next tues, but she proly gonna check her mail, so if I give notice then its not so bad if I cancel.
And I guess I freakin cuz mebbe she will call tomorrow and I dunno. Mebbe she forget cuz sometimes she does.
And I got nuttin to say nohow.
Ya, I e-mail her.
Mebbe I stupid. But I goto do whats the right thing.
M
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