Posted by slugdoo on July 16, 2007, at 11:33:55
In reply to Re: Can't feel any lower, (sorry long post) » JoniS, posted by Dinah on July 16, 2007, at 9:50:55
You all know me very well, and I find it interesting that I got more responses as a stranger then when people knew me. One one answered me in that post but anyways I just got back from T.
I will write more, but I have to take my son to the eye doc in a few minutes. But anyways, it was the most gut retching session I have ever had in my life. I cried, actually sobbed for the first time in therapy and it has been over 2 years. We did EMDR for performance anxiety, but much more came up. So much from the past. The same that horrid things from my childhood. I couldn't even finish the EMDR. I couldn't even talk because I was just crying so hard. EMDR struck a nerve more than a guitar string or trumpet note. I feel so overwhelmed at the moment. He is leaving out of the country tomorrow, but I see him Tues. of next week when he comes back. He thinks it would be fruitfull to continue, things are much deeper than he thought. But I am an expert actress ya know. I have been through hell growing up, and some of those memories are surfacing now. It is scary. He did do some EMDR to calm me down, thinking of my safe place. It actally helped, but I feel so wide open, like an open wound.
I need to get it together, I have to take my son down town. I will write more, I gotta go. My wonds are hurting a lot right now.
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