Posted by TherapyGirl on June 25, 2007, at 17:18:25
In reply to Re: Uh-Oh ****Trigger*** » TherapyGirl, posted by DAisym on June 24, 2007, at 20:09:49
Thanks, Daisy. I *know* you're right. I just can't quite seem to get control over the 3-year-old inside me who's basically saying, "When hell freezes over."
I don't know what helps. I was so humiliated by the whole thing in March I was really not thinking I would ever go back to that doctor. But the thought of starting all over with a new doctor who doesn't know my history (of the trauma response OR the previous cysts) doesn't thrill me either.
I am generally very, very good at dissociating during unpleasant, painful things. I don't know why I haven't been able to do it with this kind of pain lately.
I briefly considered asking my T to accompany me. But that feels yucky too, especially given the lesser connection I feel with her these days.
I'd be willing to consider meds, but I guess then I'd have to find someone to take me and pick me up. Or maybe I can just take a cab.
Thanks for responding. I do know you're right and I'm trying to come up with strategies, but it's very hard right now.
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