Posted by TherapyGirl on June 27, 2007, at 17:32:06
In reply to Re: Uh-Oh (I talked to T today) ****Trigger***, posted by TherapyGirl on June 26, 2007, at 17:51:39
and she's on maternity leave for 6 weeks. I really can't win for losing with doctors. She is in practice by herself, which means my only options were to see my primary care doc (she's new, too) or one of two doctors in another practice who apparently agreed to take my doc's patients while she's on leave. Did I mention that I saw her in March and had no idea she was pregnant -- AND she never mentioned it?????????????
So my only choices are to see doctors who aren't aware of my reactions to the exams and don't have access to my records. Except I did go today and pick up copies of the ultrasound reports from two years ago.
The problem (and the reason the docs get so hyper about my cysts) is that they're "complex cysts," which apparently means they could be malignant. It doesn't mean they are -- most are benign. But if they were simple cysts there would be zero chance.
So I did call one of the two docs on call for my doc. Of course, the woman was unavailable. So now I'm stuck with a man, which just adds another whole layer of anxiety. No meds, either. I did tell them that I would not allow a man to examine me. They agreed to that, so I guess we'll see what happens when I actually get there. The ultrasound is at 9:15 and then I see him afterwards.
To top it all off, I left another message for my T, who was not all that helpful yesterday, and she hasn't called me back. I swear, if she doesn't call for this (she knows I'm having major anxiety about it), I'm going to be done. Whatever has been going on with her lately is not helping me deal with any of this.
Any support you can send my way in the meantime is greatly, greatly appreciated.