Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 2, 2007, at 22:46:15
In reply to Re: surge of icky feelings **triggers**, posted by canadagirl on May 2, 2007, at 20:49:29
Dear all,
Thank you for your kind messages. You are each and everyone right (except for the peeing in the gene pool part, and the Honore's ugly drawings part).It's okay to say. I've had enough. and to stuff myself with chinese takeout. Good chinese takeout, where they yell at each other with ferocious Cantonese growls, and yet give us night after night of the finest chinese takeout ever created.
It's okay to say. Life is worth living, even if it's not perfect.
It's okay to say. I don't like the way this scarf is turning out. pull the yarn out and wind it back on the skein.
It's okay to say. I need some help feeling happy or at least normal again. I told pdoc that there was nothing he could do to make me feel better, that it was all psychological. He usually has to push me in that direction, but this time I figured it out myself. No more new drugs needed. current cocktail is fine.
Since you're curious, decided that LlurpsieNoodle is fine to "experiment with Klonopin", and raise my lamictal dose up to 200. gradually. I think he has a lot of faith in me. Now if I can only convince myself to take the damn klonopin. This is about the 15th time he's told me that I'm not taking enough. I take a little more everytime he tells me that I'm hitting a rough patch.
At the moment I feel really strange and faint. I think I messed up on my geodon dose. sh*t. that one is taken 4 times a day and I've only taken ... okay back. now I took 3 doses at once. oh well. that should help me fall asleep.
You are all so very kind. I wish, I could feel some sense of accomplishment. Instead I view the next task as one of almost insurmountable challenges. Even if the task is something dumb. like doing my dishes. I don't know what this is, but it's not so fun.
-Ll
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