Posted by 10derHeart on April 17, 2007, at 17:47:55
In reply to feeling like a little kid, posted by sunnydays on April 16, 2007, at 22:53:19
> I feel like a little kid right now. I just wish someone (especially my T) would wrap me up in their arms and tell me it's ok and that I'm safe and that they're not going to leave.
I know. Me, too, a lot of the time. Don't know about you, but it takes a lot out of me some days to sort of travel back and forth from competent, balanced, adult who can help others, over to hurt, confused, scared little kid who needs someone else to take care of me - right now! At least that's kinda a rough description of how it goes for me at times. Lately, lots of times. And our T's can't be there all the time and it just s*cks.
>>And that they could take care of me, and fix what my parents never gave me.
I think eventually, maybe, the reality will be that we have to learn skills to self soothe and comfort the child inside. I can't see it myself yet, don't want to believe it at times, wonder how I could ever be that skilled or strong... I dunno. But where ever we go, there we are, ya' know? Not other people, even out T's can be with us inside our heads and hearts. Ultimately, like they say about birth and death, we do these really important healing things by ourselves. I guess we just keep leaning on the bond and getting the comfort and attention we need from them until......? And that's where I get stuck.
>It just feels like there is a giant well of sadness in me, and it's just bottomless.
I always say 'bottomless pit of need' to my T., and he usually tries to reassure it may be deep but not bottomless. Not believing him yet. I'm sorry sunny, you sound like you're suffering with this more lately. Does your T. offer any suggestions?
> Does this therapy stuff ever get any easier?
great question. wish I had some kind of wise answer, but I don't. I do hear you, though.
> not so sunnydays
How's your T. feeling? Mine has his arm in a sling, which I hate looking at, but he swears he's okay. I wish peace and warmth for you - and your T., too, actually.
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