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Re: My T and I discussing hospitalization*trigger* » Llurpsie_Noodle

Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on March 30, 2007, at 5:22:45

In reply to Re: My T and I discussing hospitalization*trigger*, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on March 30, 2007, at 4:20:30

What does that mean if I'm too scared to hurt myself to land myself in hospital. that means I'm not ready to go yet?

I don't want to end my life only change my life. but i don't feel like I'm part of my life.

It's just moving on around me. I have my little tiny injuries, and strong urges. but something always stops me.

that means i don't go to hospital? I'm so confused. Do I have to hurt myself to go? there are ways. I'm just scared that I will be in dissociated state and no one to call and I will go too far.

that's all for now.

I have no safe place. even my safe room has opportunities. my medication is poisonous. but who will be there to wake me up?

no one. and i don't want to die. just hurt. oh sh*t. i probably said too much already. i'm too weary to edit my thoughts though.

on the bright side, I've lost 7 lbs this week from not eating. the mouse is not all bad. i know that I'll gain it all back as solid blubber eventually, but for now. i can pretend that I'm on some kind of positive trajectory, even if it is self destructive, and even if I'm dehydrated.

that's enough for now. i took a klonopin. one klonopin. and maybe i'll rest a bit.


fetal, of course.


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