Posted by zenhussy on February 14, 2007, at 17:29:11
In reply to Why won't I call by T back? (long), posted by mair on February 14, 2007, at 16:55:09
>>>>>I seem to fly all over the place between feeling like I don't really need to be in therapy, and feeling so needy. Sometimes I feel that this disruption has demonstrated to me that therapy is simply an expensive luxury. The next moment I feel panicked at the thought of trying to maintain some mental stability without her help. It's occurred to me that maybe I'm making myself feel depressed and needy just so I can justify continuing. Is that being manipulative?
All of which gets me back to where I started. I think I'm so conflicted that I'm incapable of really doing anything - I can't seem to just quit - I can't invest enough of myself into therapy right now to make it seem worthwhile - and I can't even seem to respond to a very simple request that I call her.
Any ideas?<<<<<
Mair,You're not making yourself feel depressed and needy to justify continuing.....maybe you ARE having feelings of neediness and depression?
and it is OKAY to feel those things. it isn't easy, nor comfortable but it is okay.
the request to call her isn't simple....please don't diminish it by saying it is so.
there's so much more wrapped up in this like you've written so of course it isn't simple or easy and of course you're conflicted.
couldn't be harder news about your sister either :( so sorry about the timing. she's lucky you're going to be able to go help her post surgically.
wish the ol' husster had insight or wisdom. instead just plain ol' compassion and empathy.
willing to listen/read whatever you need to get out.
keep listening to your gut about this.....after ten years and all you've been through maybe some personal time to reflect might be good....even if it wasn't planned. you might find during that time you'll be able to examine your therapeutic relationship in the ways you need to. you might find out you're ready to switch to a different therapist or kind of therapy or that it is more important to have continuity.....only you will know what is right for you.
with huge prayers for sister, therapist and whole family,
zh
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