Posted by Dinah on January 13, 2007, at 18:55:06
In reply to Re: I can't do it anymore., posted by Honore on January 13, 2007, at 11:57:22
I think I just missed you last night in Chat.
What I want is to be a housemom. To create the warm and loving environment that a friend of mine had as a child. Well, probably more than one friend, but my aspiration is to be like Mrs. T.
Of course, I also want my therapist, and I love to spend money, and all of that would just have to go, which is what ties me to my job. I get good pay, good benefits, and a flexible, if alarming and adrenaline producing, work schedule. Moreover I like the actual work well enough, if I never had to hear from another person in my work life.
I feel trapped in a golden cage, and feel stupid to want to leave it.
It would have been so much easier, if initially traumatic, if we had moved to another city. But we've ruled that out till my son graduates high school.
Today of course I felt better, because today a dozen people weren't calling me insisting that their stuff was priority. (And truth be told, they all are priority, but there's just one of me, and when I get overwhelmed I freeze like a deer in the headlights, which always helps.)
poster:Dinah
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