Posted by Daisym on July 19, 2006, at 23:54:19
In reply to Re: Struggling (big trigger) » daisym, posted by annierose on July 19, 2006, at 22:30:56
Posting about how I feel right now is a double-edge sword. I want and need the support so thank you all so much for that. I want to matter to someone.
And yet, I don't. I'm feel like I'm tied to a balloon that is drifting slowly and quietly away. And balloons make people really happy as they float up and up and up. And then when they are out of sight, they burst...explode...and what is left free-falls to the ground. But out of sight, out of mind, right?
I wonder if you all know how much you mean to me. I've met some of you in person and everyone is as awesome in person as they are on the board. I think about this journey I'm on and I wouldn't have made it this far without Babble and my friends here. Nothing in my life has ever compared to the experience of being wholly honest and understood. The idea that I could say what I've said, especially about something as personal as therapy and my feelings for my therapist, astounds me. What an incredible gift -- this place of safety and soft emotional holding. I know others have not had the same consistent experience, but I feel blessed to have landed here, and to have found you all at this time of my life.
I know this is sappy and sentimental but I wanted it said. ((((Babble friends)))))