Posted by Karolina on May 28, 2006, at 0:29:54
In reply to Is thinking of sucide a bad thing? Trigger, posted by happyflower on May 27, 2006, at 21:12:53
Well for me, the thought of death alone terrifies me, so thinking about suicide in some strange, strange way made me feel better. My T said it was because it made me feel in control of my own destiny. Basically that death wouldn't come and bite me in the @$$ when I least expected it.
I'm so sorry you've been thinking this way though. I think it's within the realms of being very normal to think about death, suicide, and all that kind of stuff. I think everybody does that at some point in their life. But thinking and acting are 2 very different things. Although it's ok to think about, I think talking about this with your T and about how you feel right now is very important. And I know we've all heard before about how if we were to kill ourselves it'd be like killing everyone else we know too, but you know I think it's kind of true. Your T would be devastated if you ended your life. And of course your family, and everyone else that knows you.
I've attempted suicide before and it really was a stupid thing now that I look back on it. I was put on an antidepressant that did not agree with me well at all, so the details are kind of blurry. But I think anytime we hear about people committing suicide, even if we don't personally know them, it gives us that weird, sad feeling...and we ask the question 'why did they do that'? I don't know if what I'm saying makes much sense or if it helps, but please hang in there and know that we are here for you.
-Karolina-
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