Posted by muffled on May 12, 2006, at 18:30:27
In reply to Re: conflicted feelings about csa ***trigger*** » B2chica, posted by bent on May 11, 2006, at 17:50:37
Thats half my problem tho, when those feelings arise I dissociate. My T says its hard for her to tell when my mind sorta leaves the room but i have never been able to tell her either. I dont know how to stay present. I dont know if she can help with that or not. I guess I am gonna have to stay present and feel through these feelings if I am going to get past them.
***Manoman that dissociating thing used to drive me nuts (if you'll pardon the pun). Yeah, its not necc. obvious to others except for me I stop talking, and when my T stops saying what it was that set me off, I can't answer. I can hear her sort of but the words don't make sense. I can see her mouth moving but I'm not sure why its moving. Then she says pleasant 'talk the jumper off the bridge" type talk, and how I am safe and all that. I gradually come back. But not completely really until a couple of hours after appt.
Sometimes I can tell I'm starting to go, everything starts to sounding different and it looks like I'm looking thru glass, then I can say STOP, and shake my head, and my T can talk me back quicker that way.
Dunno if this helps.
Its a fear response, dissociating is. Mebbe if you felt somehow more safe somehow at the time?????
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