Posted by special_k on March 31, 2006, at 19:22:29
In reply to Re: I need to do something..., posted by Racer on March 31, 2006, at 13:00:27
> Have you considered going to the uni counseling service to help you FIND a therapist?
no, i hadn't thought of that. i don't know how that would go... maybe that is the way to go about it. and then maybe if there isn't any thing... maybe they will take pity on me. this is so pathetic. i am so pathetic. i'm sorry. i'm really not doing so well. i've fairly much given up hope that a therapist will actually be able to help me anyway. not very many people in the world seem to be able to even understand me. and that is really hard for me. i don't get on with very many people. honestly... the ones i've gotten on with have been more psychodynamic trained... i've had it up to my eyeballs with CBT. and i'm scared about the DID stuff. i'm really very scared :-( i don't know what to say... my old p-doc seemed to think i should take the clinical assessment i got done and show that to somebody (the dx interview where i was dx'd with DID) but... i do believe i've thrown it away or ripped it up into a lot of tiny pieces or somesuch. i don't know what to do. :-(
but the time has come to do something. thanks fo ryour suggestions. maybe i should just be up front. i guess my biggest worry is mentioning the DID thing... i worry that they will want me to get the hell out of there (part of the reinforce it away school of 'treatment') or that i far exceed what they can offer...
and maybe...
that i should go home.
that i can't do this.
and maybe they'd be right. what was i thinking?
i don't know :-(
feel scared :-(
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