Posted by Susan47 on February 10, 2006, at 14:23:44
In reply to Re: What is so annoying though » Susan47, posted by LegWarmers on February 9, 2006, at 17:57:54
> sometimes I dont feel deserving of my happiness. It doesnt make any sense to me. Sometimes people say things to me and i don't think they intend to hurt me, but they cut very deeply. But I think it is because they are hitting my achililes (how ever you spell it) tendon
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Well when your head is full of negativity and little else, there's not much left to see the other side with, you know? So a lot of things won't make sense and WILL be hurtful because you don't know how to see things any other way. It just makes sense. It really does. It's your thinking, it's your interpretation that's a problem, not what they said. Most people really aren't into hurting anybody, it's true, it's really true, most people WANT you to like them and want to be around them. But when you're not sure about who you are, when you haven't discovered your wonderful-ness, it doesn't feel like that .. and you can't give much of your real self, not having discovered it, yet.I'm a slow learner. I'm 48 going on 49 going on what should have been, probably, 19 or so ...? Don't feel bad. Some people aren't ever lucky enough to be able to work on these things.
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bad, for feeling sorry for myself, and then I realize that Im a huge failure and oh it goes on and on... and I dont feel I am allowed to feel that way. Im crazy
No you're not, you're totally aware of what negativity's doing to your life, and it DOES feel crazy, when you start seeing that there's something else in life, I mean, where have you BEEN all these years??? Thanks for valuing my opinion, as it is only that, and always strongly worded, in spite of my good intentions.
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