Posted by LegWarmers on February 9, 2006, at 17:57:54
In reply to Re: What is so annoying though, posted by Susan47 on February 9, 2006, at 17:25:25
> > is that it doesnt explain my laziness and lack of motivation...or does it...
> > maybe I get to caught up with things and then they get too much for me
> > Im trying to remind myself that nothing matters, nothing is really *that* important
>
> People are always told not to say "I know how you feel", we're taught that it's presumptuous to do that .. but .. well .. I know how you feel. :] I think you might be realizing though that being hard on yourself is cruel, you wouldn't be as hard on anyone else as you are on yourself .. and others are letting you know what they see, and it might very well be them acknowledging that you have a problem with your happiness.sometimes I dont feel deserving of my happiness. It doesnt make any sense to me. Sometimes people say things to me and i don't think they intend to hurt me, but they cut very deeply. But I think it is because they are hitting my achililes (how ever you spell it) tendon
>I mean, maybe it's not the lack of being able to take action that's the problem, that's more the symptom, and they're saying, I see the symptom .. can I help you with the problem? What IS the problem .. and you don't know, yet, but you know you're not comfortable in your skin so can't do anything because it's all too scary, the consequences are ... just scary.
I think..you might have something there. I discussed some of these issues today and I think it has a lot to do with figuring out who I am. I thought I should have done that 5 or 10 years ago but Im a slow learner I suppose.
There is a lot of conflict, i don't know what to do with it>I've felt like that before and the feeling just grows and gets worse, unless you find a way to deal with it. I found pot .. and good friends .. knowing who friends are, what they feel like to my heart ... it's important to start with the positives, positive people will bring you happiness and the contentment, but it's finding them AND the drug AND the therapy ... Susan, you're preaching, you realize that you sound like you're preaching, do you not ???
>You're cute Susan! thanks for the insight. A part of me knows the problem, a part of me wants to make it disapear with an excuse, a part of me doesnt know if that really is the problem, or if its another excuse, a part of me wants to pretend that everything is wonderful and a part of me thinks IM NUTS!
Therapy...Im working on that lol My t basically told me I was lazy (reverse psychology?), it didn't go over well with me. Now its got me questioning myself about everything! I do have good friends, and I try to center myself around positive people, but when I get really down on myself for things I feel guilty, I feel guilty for feeling so bad, for feeling sorry for myself, and then I realize that Im a huge failure and oh it goes on and on... and I dont feel I am allowed to feel that way. Im crazy
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