Posted by alexandra_k on February 4, 2006, at 5:25:12
In reply to ((((((alexandra K)))))))))))))) (nm), posted by happyflower on February 3, 2006, at 2:30:40
thanks for that.
have been a little fragile lately. have been reading... but been finding it hard to post. not sure why. just having trouble :-( and feeling unconnected because i'm not posting more. i shall make a concentrated effort tomorrow and hopefully i'll manage to break through that wall...
sigh.
have been feeling really rather fragmented. have started freaking a little about just how much i do use. because... i don't want it to be part of my life once i move. because... i will be losing all my current contacts / connections. a part of me... doesn't want to move. is not happy about this situation. that part has been really rather vocal around all this.
alchohol. sigh. don't bother with it mostly. just want to feel more high and... less sick. we have a binge drinking culture over here. it is considered to be a social problem. but we have a binge drinking culture. i've been trying to be more social... seems to involve drinking games. going into town (not really my scene typically). i was trying to be social :-( but really... that is not me either.
randoms. well... just the one. :-( not happy of myself. not proud. might bite me yet :-(
and the anger / rage at community mental health is flaring up too. i guess cause i'm fragile.
this shall pass. i don't want to be a binge drinker. this shall pass. please god.
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