Posted by Racer on January 24, 2006, at 16:20:19
In reply to going this evening, posted by ClearSkies on January 24, 2006, at 12:48:48
> again i wonder can therapy DO this to me, to myself? does it matter if this is biological or not, can therapy get me through this?
I sure as shooting hope is can, on both counts, because I'm pretty sure that my current misery is at least partially therapy induced. And on the assumption that is the case, it sure better be part of the solution.
For what it's worth, I called my T yesterday, too, and asked her to call me. Usually, if I call her, it's to leave a message for her. I'll even specify on the message, "I don't need you to call back." This was one of the only times I've ever asked that she call back. And she did, but I ended up feeling worse -- by the time she called back, I'd sucked back again, and felt worse-but-less-able-to-express-it. And I think I'm still there -- in the "I know that I'm upset about [x], but saying anything about it will make it so much worse it's not even worth the effort of putting it into words" place. I'm afraid of saying anything, and of course -- I "know" that I'm not supposed to feel this way.
So, all of that is to say that I think I might be able to empathize pretty well with you right now. And even if that's so far off the mark from you that you don't know why I bothered to type it -- I'm still sympathetic.
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