Posted by Dinah on January 6, 2006, at 17:58:05
In reply to Re: How I Would Feel, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:09:05
I'm trying to reattach to my therapist (T1). I just am ambivilant sometimes.
It's like the pain I feel when my dogs die. It hurts like anything, but I wouldn't want to give up the love and attachment just because it's going to hurt some day.
I know he doesn't care about me like I care about him. I know that's going to hurt me and anger me sometimes. I know that he or I could move, and I could get really really really hurt.
Ironically, if he hadn't bought a house three hours away, told me that he wasn't sure he could continue to be my therapist, and left for six weeks, I would have probably refused to move no matter what. No matter what the financial burden would be to my family. So maybe the rupture was for the best.
You know, I think if it weren't for this life changing event, he really would have done his best to give me forever therapy.
I mentioned it yesterday, and he said that he thought that on some level I did want that. I told him what do you mean some level? Of course I want that!
Sigh.
But of course that's more important to me than it is to him.
poster:Dinah
thread:595305
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051229/msgs/595906.html