Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:09:05
In reply to Re: How I Would Feel » Poet, posted by Dinah on January 6, 2006, at 13:40:19
Hi Dinah,
The fog had lifted my brain for a little bit, but your post kinda sound how I sort of feel. But your case is much more severe.
When I called my T this week, because I needed a session before next week, and he didn't call me back not only did I feel abandoned, but I felt he had enough of me. Now if he was a real friend, he would of wanted to talk to me without an appointment, without being paid, and would have made time for me. Sometimes reality really stinks. So feeling "left" makes me very angry, maybe it reminds me of my childhood or DH, and when I trusted my T , he left me too.
I get your anger, and I get why you want to avoid putting yourself into that position again. It seems like you like T3 but have doubts about her too, I wouldn't want to get myself attached either. But yet getting reattached to T1, after he "left" you probably doesn't feel good either, because what if he doesn't "come back". Being abandoned would really suck a second time. I would be worried about it too. Feeling attached sometimes feels good, but sometimes it is very scary when it might get taken away. It makes me think of foster children and how awful it must be for them. Well I offer you hugs ((((Dinah)))), I hope you can find strenght in yourself to allow yourself to trust one of them. (but I am saying do as I say, not as I do) I am still having trouble too in this area and maybe my mind is still cloudy, so I hope I don't offend in anyway..
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