Posted by fairywings on December 16, 2005, at 19:53:23
In reply to Re: I don't like... » fairywings, posted by sleepygirl on December 16, 2005, at 19:04:28
> I too feel like I behave like a little kid sometimes. I think it's frustration, anger, feelings stirred up...why the heck are you disappointing me? sort of stuff, this is hard to talk about, and how the heck can you expect me to do that kind of stuff when you can't be available as much as I may need it? kind of stuff
yeah, for me it all feels so pouty or withdrawing or something, and then i think how in the world am i supposed to deal with this until next appt. it does feel really disappointing, that's a good way to put it. you wait till now, we can't talk cause times up, and now i have to leave w/the disappointment.
> Yeah, I've spent a lot of time sort of embarrassed by myself with my T, I still do. I'm still having trouble talking about stuff. Sometimes I honestly can't think of what to talk about, sometimes everything seems unimportant, sometimes I feel like it has a lot to do with timing.
this is incredibly embarrassing and shameful for me. a lot of hurt, and asking me to verbalize specifically what it was, to put it in words instead of writing, at the end of the appt. just s*cks. like you said, it feels unimportant, like he's got bigger fish to fry or like there have to be bigger things ppl are going through, and i should just get a life.
> Well anyway, this is good to bring up (always good to bring things up ;-)