Posted by kerria on September 3, 2005, at 6:41:35
In reply to Re: Crisis - T became so defensive /may be triggering » kerria, posted by fairywings on September 3, 2005, at 6:07:14
Thank you Everyone, for your support.
i'm so saddened that my T is not able to help me .
i can't go to a hospital- i get way worse because my parts have nothing to ground to. They are dependant upon where they are - so we switch throughout the day.
Some parts are doing ok but most are having a very difficult time. i'm afraid. i wish i could find a T that could help- it's too difficult to change- no one will take me- they all know my T and each other. Everything is so much a mess inside.T is impossible to get to trust- he's so into boundaries that i can never feel any caring at all. Forgetting to call was so hard to take because i was in so much pain and so close to making a final decision. It's so hard to see T as a helping person now and it will be so hard in so many ways to find another.
Ts are human but when your patient only calls a few times a year and is as upset as i was there's no way to forget if you are human.
i have DID- i know what it's like to forget but i don't think that i would forget something like that if i cared at all about that person.without caring therapy is too difficult to do.
i'm stuck again.it hurts so much to not have the help that i need for so long.
Thanks for being there. i'm afraid to write so much. i hate to read my writing.
thank you,
kerria
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