Posted by rainbowbrite on August 29, 2005, at 17:41:57
In reply to Re: dealing with crap » rainbowbrite, posted by daisym on August 29, 2005, at 15:51:47
> Sometimes fighting off the bad feelings is the wrong thing to do. Let yourself cry and be angry and then cry some more. And then pick yourself up and try to get on with life.
i had a good cry last night and I think it helped, my eyes hurt today but that will pass. yeah I will move on, I need to. Best thing is to keep myself busy but not too busy.
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> Suicide almost always isn't about anyone but the person and their private pain. In those moment, the hell they are in is worse than the hell they imagine leaving you in. It is a personal battle of one-on-one, me-to-me or I-to-I. I know you loved this person, but I agree with Damos, this wasn't about you and they wouldn't have wanted you to continue to suffer.YEah I know, its weird how I get into this blaming game. It was messing me up yesterday. when it gets you its so hard to see any other way. I realized I was distorting what happened a little and putting more responsibilty on me then I should have. I am still doing it a little but not like I was.
> I hope you find someone to talk to about all this soon. It is one of the darkest kinds of guilt and loss. In the mean time, be gentle with yourself.
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> hugs
> DaisyThanks Daisy, I am going to work on getting to someone. I shouldnt let myself get so upset by things or be so reactive
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