Posted by LauraBeane on August 27, 2005, at 12:38:37
In reply to Re: Why am I so incompetent? » fairywings, posted by Tamar on August 27, 2005, at 5:05:37
> > Aw, that's so sad. I'm amazed that you were able to hold out for so long, believing that the tape contained something so precious, w/o listening to it, and I'm sorry his voice wasn't on it. I know that must have been so hard.
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> Yeah. I can’t believe I thought it was there when all along it wasn’t. But maybe thinking it was there was enough. If I’d discovered my mistake four months ago it would probably have been much worse!I'm sure you are right. There's a children's story somewhere about a family that is poor. Whenever there is something the little girl really wants, the grownups ask, should we get out the money jar? Is it that important for you to have this thing that you want? She always decides that even though the thing would be nice to have, it's not important enough to get out the money jar, which holds all their savings in the world. When the little girl grows up, she discovers that there never was a money jar hidden under the floor. The grownups didn't have enough money to save, but they wanted her to feel safe. And she did.
I'm sorry you didn't find the tape. But that voice from the past has got to be bittersweet. maybe not finding it spared you from something too.
Best,
Laura
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