Posted by Susan47 on August 7, 2005, at 23:17:53
In reply to Re: Yesterday I walked down my ex-T's street, posted by rabidreader on August 5, 2005, at 13:48:58
Hi, I do think you're right. But I'm still having a lot of trouble with the concept of falling off a cliff if I completely let go.
I came to depend on the thought of him being there for me. My phoning made it all very present and real to me, that he was there. The voice on the other end, although recorded, assured me that someone would always eventually hear me. I know that isn't true now, he's told me often enough ... but I loved him dearly, he has no idea how much, and how deeply, I felt about him.. does anyone else know how humiliating, how crushing it is to love someone who doesn't know you exist? Who doesn't care, doesn't want to see you or hear you or know of your existence in the world, even. It's stupid. I'm an idiot for feeling this way, for allowing this to happen to me.
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