Posted by kerria on June 29, 2005, at 22:57:14
In reply to Re: Can body memories be constant? MT » kerria, posted by alexandra_k on June 29, 2005, at 21:56:20
Hi alexandra_k and everyone,
Today i tried to come down on my standard dose because it's getting me so sick and i tried taking 40 mg instead of 60 mg. i found out that i can't lower the dose because i'm in terribly bad pain then. i can't even lower it. Now i don't think there's any doubt in my mind at all that it's physical pain. It's scarier for me to have that kind of pain because of trauma-related stuff but i don't think it could be the origin of it anymore.
At 3:15pm i took the lower dose , 40mg oxycontin instead of 60mg and was in terrible pain by 6:30pm and crying at 7:30, taking breakthrough oxycodone until i took the complete dose- 60mg at 10:15pm. i'm finally ok to sit up and write. It's definately physical but i have to find something else that works. i'm getting a bad reaction to the oxycontin even though it stops the pain. Nothing is as bad as being in the horrible pain, though. i can't understand how drs haven't found the cause of severe pain like this. It makes me afraid that they know why and won't tell me. Why would the pain management Dr give me a hard time though?
alexandra_k- i opted not to tell any of my Drs about my psych problems because of how people treat me that do know that i have DID. No one understands and treats me the same. i didn't want to have to struggle against all the 'It's probably all related/body memory thinking' that they would have. It's probably still a good way to go if i can continue to hide my problems/parts from pain dr. Having the nerve block is hard, though, but if T can help with getting the little parts to sleep, etc, by hypnosis the procedure may be the best thing to do. It may work to stop the pain.
Even cutting medicine back 1/3 made the pain unliveable. i will be in very bad trouble if Dr wants to take me off medicine before i have a successful block. i won't be able to do anything at all except suffer. i hope so much that it doesn't happen.Thanks for being there,
kerria
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